Monday, January 15, 2018

Back to blogging!

This is it!  It's been soooo long since I've blogged, but I am (as I type) downloading photos/videos from my phone onto the computer and as I browse through hundreds and hundreds of precious photos and videos, I am just KICKING myself that I have neglected journaling them!!!  Life is so overwhelming and busy most of the time, but somehow, looking back on all of those treasured moments makes me realize how quickly life is passing by and how important it is to keep a record of this beautiful time of our lives!

I tend to be someone that is all or nothing-- and so when I sit down to blog and realize I have a thousand and one topics I could write about, I typically just shut down and do nothing!  Come to think of it, I'm like that with a messy house as well!  (;  But NO MORE!  It's ok if I don't blog everything-- I will blog SOME things.  (:  And honestly, even if I write every single day, it's such a small slice of our life.  Days are so full of fun and chaos and heartbreak and joy and stories and setbacks-- it's impossible to capture it all.  Some of it I don't even want to capture!  And then there's the fact that some kids are more private than others, and we try to respect that here...  But for the rest of this year, I will be DILIGENT in recording many of the crazy, beautiful moments that are found here in the Green household.  And I will start with a tender conversation I overheard the other day between Conner, Lexi, and Sophi.

Soph:  "Lexi, do you think I HAVE to have arms when Jesus comes again?"

Lex:  "Hmmm.  I don't know.  Do you not want arms?"

Soph:  "I don't think so.  Because I like using my feet.  And it would be boring to be like everyone else."

Lex:  "Yeah, like it's so much better when everyone is different.  It would be so boring if like, everyone's favorite color was red.  I mean, what kind of world would that be?"

Conner:  "Yeah, I don't think I very want to see.  Because I like being blind.  It's good to be different. Not everyone should be the same."

Soph:  "Yeah!  Like, it's good to be special like us!"

My kids melt my heart.

Incidentally, Conner came home the next day and said, "I changed my mind.  I do want to see, because then I could find my friends at lunch."

And this is how my heart goes from soaring to breaking a thousand times a day...  I guess it's the cycle of a parent as you watch your kids navigate the ups and downs of life.  Times that by 10 kids and it's no wonder my heart feels like it's been through the ringer every single day.  Joy.  Sorrow.  Gratitude.  Disappointment.  Grief.  Love.  Frustration.  Pride.  Peace.  Worry.  Excitement.  Trepidation.   Repeat every few minutes.  Ha!