Tuesday, September 28, 2010

I love you, dear Emily Anne!

She would be turning five today.

And because of her short life, we now have THREE living children her age. Yes-- Emily, Elli, Xander, and Lexi were all born within a year of each other. (: None of them would be here with us if Emily hadn't returned to her Heavenly Father when she did.

What fun they will someday have all together... Emily and Xander with their perfect bodies, Elli and Lexi with their perfect eyesight... What a joyous day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I couldn't help all those exclamation marks. (:

When we left our home during the fire last week, we gathered our precious things. These included Emily's box (and Jacob's too, of course) of momentos from her birth. When we came home and put things away, I went through those boxes and looked at every single thing. Every picture. Every card sent to us by friends and family. Every photocopy of letters we had written and left in their caskets. Every momento, including the dress we first dressed Emily in, the blanket we first wrapped Jacob in, and replicas of the stuffed animals they were buried with.

I saw her birth announcement with the little pink footprints, reading in part:

"May these feet leave their footprints across your heart as they have ours."

I saw the chart that had been posted on our fridge stating who was set up to bring us meals and who was helping with the kids. (Thanks, McKenzie.) I saw the little note cards that had come with flowers sent by loved ones. I read each card sent to us, and was reminded of the love sent our way by so many people.

Just so you know, I needed every single one.

I am overwhelmed with gratitude for the sweet people in my life!

Thank you!

A few pictures to share...

Jessica hugging the bunny Emily would be buried with.

Her casket-- I made it out of a large jewelry/silverware box. The dress was made by a woman from church, her bracelet by my friend, Teresa, (who made matching ones for Jesi and myself), and the beautiful blanket by Jeremy's sister, Jennifer.

Jeremy singing at her graveside service. He sang a song we had written together, and another entitled "The Things I Know." Part of the words are as follows:

I know little babies come from heaven
I know God made her tiny hands and heart
I know rainbows and roses are no accident
Neither are the sun and moon and stars

So when I doubt
And there are things in life I just can't figure out
I trust that He
Is in control
And I hold on
To the things I know

Taylor and Parker sang "Families Can Be Together Forever"

My boys buried her.

It was a sacred day.

Love you, birthday girl!

PS About my comment to Jeremy in the previous post... it was, of course, said in jest! I am very nice to my hubby. And I know that he really isn't a scrooge.

Most of the time.

Oh, and speaking of my sweetheart-- it was his birthday on the 23rd! I didn't get the chance to post it on the blog--it was a crazy, special day that I will write about later, but in the meantime, feel free to send him belated birthday wishes and congrats for getting so close to 40! (;


  1. Thinking of you and sending prayers your way today. You're amazing as always. Wasn't it your birthday too??? Happy Birthday!

  2. Thank you for sharing such a special part of your life. I am touched and grateful for your positive examples. Oh, and Happy birthdays!

  3. You guys are simply amazing. I'm in awe at the strength and faith you have. It is hard to believe it was five years ago. I still have her birth announcement and while we were packing teared up as I read the note that went with it.

  4. What a lovely post - thanks for having such an open heart! Your courage is just amazing....

    And happy birthday my brother - another 'almost' milestone? Still it's a good thing - an 'older' thing - but a good one! ;)

    Hugs and loads of love - aus and co.

  5. We love you, our sweet, precious granddaughter, Emily. You have touched lives in ways we couldn't have dreamed of.

  6. Thank you for sharing such precious things...and being a rock for those of us that get weepy over much less!
    Love you, though I don't know you!

  7. Remember that experience just like it was yesterday, Christianne... It was absolutely heartbreaking. It makes me cry just thinking about it. You are both so strong. Trusting in Him and in His will, especially when it isn't ours can be SO hard. I look at all of the blessings the Lord has sent your way since those difficult days...I am so genuinely happy for you. Today, I needed to be reminded of the words in the song you mentioned. I sure love you!!!


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